I am not sure what I am doing at the moment. I was challenged during church with this comment (once again) and every time it gets me. I know that I have the joy of the Lord, there is no doubt about that, but I still feel like I am trying to put together pieces of happiness in order to enjoy life. Am I still running away or will I ever be completely satisfied with my life. I know what abiding means and I don't feel as if I am doing that. But for how long will I go from thing to thing? When can I settle down and commit? Or is committing just settling? Or is there something more?